I believe Day zero was actually 4 days ago, but at this point who is counting? The "drama" wont actually end until August 22nd when I'll get a Yay or a Nay from my oncologist.
The last 200 days has not been a whole lot of fun, but at this point I'm alive and kicking. The worst part of the whole thing hasn't been the cancer and it's treatments. It has been they annoying discomfort and occasional embarrassment of the kidney stent. Spending less time vertical has helped that a bit. As has the ingestion of various Cannabis products, mostly CBD based, to alleviate the pain, which can best be described as similar to being kicked in the nuts.
As well as the physical pain there has been a decent amount of mental stress. During a couple of bad times I must admit that suicide did flash fleetingly across my field of view. It all boils down to quality over quantity. I've had an amazing life and have seen so much of the world so if I were to "check out" now rather than later, I dont think I would miss a whole lot.
Having said that, I was recently informed of the apparent suicide of a former boss. He is not someone that I will miss might be the nicest way to describe my feelings about him. But that event gave me a SKITA and I realize that there is too much great stuff happening that I cant leave the party too early! LOL
Next month I have lined up an EPIC trip through Tuscany with stops in Venice, Cinque Terre and Rome.
Final Update: I didn't notice I hadn't published the last three posts until now. On a positive note, My last checkup in Jan 2019 pronounced me free of any further lymphoma, so life will, indeed go on! And On, And On!!!!!!!
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